regina - the sugarcubes

wonderful life

its strange how beautiful things are when you have a mind clear enough to see reality. the little gifts and special treasures that are hidden everywhere amaze me to no end...tastes, sounds, sunlight reflecting off the snow, the smell of fresh bedsheets when you're drifting off to sleep...

how peaceful and serene life can be if you let it be. why do so many scream and shout and panic and continue the cycle of negativity that breeds and bleeds in to fighting and war; that grows and grows and grows and consumes everything around them in its unholy fire.

i was becoming one of these, so i fixed it. i stopped the devil from using me as a vehicle for his vengeance. my vice was allowing other people's ignorance and apathy to enrage me to the point of violent thoughts and anti-social actions. i still think most people are unworthy of the space they violate and the precious oxygen and water that is wasted on them, but now i don't care.

i live my life, i dream my dreams.
i know what is right and i follow that path faithfully.

i leave the sheep to graze in their own demise and i ignore their existence.

they are not worth their weight in sand,
and they are definitely not worth my sanity.

wellbutrin cougar prowl

so i was having some issues with anxiety, concentration, anger, and mild depression - and was finding myself hyper-frustrated and easily fatigued by life and her tribulations, both great AND small...and these things are not as fun as they sound for a busy girl in a busy world, so i went to the doctor today and got myself a 3 month prescription for the super-snazzy little pills pictured above.

i have taken bupropion before in a different form and it allowed me to get myself organized and stay focused long enough to make the excellent, life-changing/life-affirming decision to move to montreal...which i absolutely have not regretted for one second in 7 years...so let's see what new and exciting realizations will appear out of the mist of my muddy marsh of a mind...what interesting life changes lay ahead for me? stay tuned!

p.s: it is also known to boost your sex drive...grrrrrr!

my favorite drug

capsizing my soul
with your violent eyes.
brutal,
they rip in to the heart of me.
i think i'd despise you
if i didn't love you.
you know i'd die for you
if the chance ever arises.

you are the drug i take with abandon
even though i know it's slowly killing me.
addictions are sexy things
that flirt outrageously
with my subconscious needs
like pain and self-destruction.

i just wish i could be strong like i used to be.
but you take that away from me
'cause i sit back and let you.

baby,
you're all that i crave inside.
it used to be chemicals
but now it's your heartache.
maybe someday
i'll be able to hide my weaknesses
and rise above you.

maybe someday
i'll finally die
and then i won't worry
about why i let you
stick pins in my mind.

Creep - The Pretenders

sat naam!

god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god
god = nature = science = god

semi-enigmatic pseudo-future

live for today, tomorrow may never come.
do whatever you see fit because disease and destruction hover around us like swarms of raging hornets and we are all just food for their indescriminate hunger.

i'm not saying we should be sociopaths,
what i'm saying is that personal, social, and political anarchy are our birthrights as long as we follow a few simple rules:

respect the environment for the sake of future generations,

love and accept one another regardless of spiritual belief, race, gender, or sexual orientation,

don't cause harm or stress to other living creatures for your own personal cravings or gain.

zeitgeist: the movie (full version)

human evolution

interspecies love

Free Me - Goldfinger

human behaviour

veganism is not a diet, it is a lifestyle.

whether it be an ethical/spiritual one (as in my case) or an environmentally conscious choice (as is the case for certain friends of mine) it becomes a fetish and/or religion. but then again, that goes without saying, since all lifestyles are fetishes - and all fetishes are religions - and all religions are fetishes - and all fetishes are lifestyles...

...sa-ta-na-ma...the infinite, inescapable cycle of life, death, and rebirth...everything is just one never-ending algorythm - and everything is exactly the same as everything else on a molecular/philosophical level - even sex and god.

however, on a macroscopic level everything is very different from each other, and as supposedly highly evolved organisms, we humans have some extremely important choices to make...

whatever the reason one decides to become a vegan, it all boils down to the same thing: delicious food, healthier minds and bodies, and less of a negative impact on the land and the freedom of animals. i think all of these things are very positve and should be promoted actively and forcefully. we now have the knowledge and means to create non-animal based foods which are healthier and more ecologically sound. why wouldn't we want to steer human evolution in this direction?

and if along the way less animals are tortured and killed because of it, then as a species we have also evolved further morally...

and isn't evolving a beautiful thing?